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“Praise is a ghost I never learned to hold.”The Full Moon in Scorpio rises—and with it, a tide I can no longer suppress.Tonight, I felt it again: That spaghetti knot in my chest, tangled threads of memory and myth— tightening around my heartstrings like barbed wire soaked in nostalgia and sweat.I call it what it is: a protector. A guardian forged in childhood, around the age of seven, when “we don’t have money” was less a sentence and more a spell cast over every meal, every sigh, every silence in the kitchen. Back then, safety was measured in how many days until rent. Stress was not an event—it was the atmosphere.And now? Now I shake under fluorescent lights when rent is due. Now I sweat through my shirt when someone says “we can’t afford it.” Now I can't even feel praise when it’s offered—because my nervous system doesn’t recognize it as real.Scorpio governs the 8th House—death, trauma, shared resources, emotional entanglement. She doesn’t flinch at the truth. Neither will I.I am learning to praise the one who protected me. The one who clenched. Who froze. Who disassociated. The one who said, “Shut it down. No time for feelings. Survival first.”But Scorpio, in her lunar fullness, whispers: “Survival is not the same as sovereignty.”So here I am—raw, unraveling. Not seductive. Not strategic. Just shaking. Just seeing. Just scribing. Not because I want sympathy.Because I want to break the curse.The curse of not hearing praise. The curse of not knowing when I’ve done enough. The curse of being so armored against disappointment that I confuse tenderness with danger.So if you’ve praised me—and I missed it: Please know it wasn’t you. It was the imprint. The guardian. The seven-year-old still keeping score on a blackboard that says “you’re only safe when you’re useful.”But tonight, Scorpio calls me to a different altar.<ol><li>I light a candle not for my performance, but for my presence.</li><li>I write not to prove—but to remember.</li><li>I invoke the serpent, not to strike—but to shed.</li></ol><h3>Ritual for the Reader: If this touched you, whisper your own name out loud. Then say: “I praise myself. Even if it trembles.”</h3>Because tonight, the moon doesn’t want your mask. She wants your marrow.

The Knot Beneath My Ribs: A Scorpio Full Moon Confession

Pluto, the cosmic harbinger of transformation and rebirth, enters Aquarius—a sign of innovation, community, and progress—marking a pivotal chapter in humanity’s evolution. This transit, lasting from 2024 to 2044, invites us to reimagine power, embrace radical shifts, and confront the shadows lurking in our collective systems. As we stand at the threshold of this new era, let’s explore the profound changes Pluto in Aquarius promises and how it follows on the heels of Pluto’s transformative journey through Capricorn.<figure id="figure-wmy7sj7rkm3onx88s"><img id="wmy7sj7rkm3onx88s" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/brVVRE7LmgMY0SgJr1qz6tcATSDKbqBpCiUMPeTpK16oAFBMS62GfaUFS7fsbBVe.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 50% 100%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="50%" data-positiony="100%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/brVVRE7LmgMY0SgJr1qz6tcATSDKbqBpCiUMPeTpK16oAFBMS62GfaUFS7fsbBVe.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 50% 100%;"></figure><h3>From Capricorn’s Foundations to Aquarius’s Horizons</h3>Pluto’s journey through Capricorn (2008–2024) was marked by the dismantling of rigid structures—governments, corporations, and institutions. This era exposed corruption, demanded accountability, and redefined leadership. The global financial crisis of 2008, the rise of cryptocurrencies, and systemic shifts in governance all bear Pluto’s signature.As Pluto lingers at the 29th degree of Capricorn, the anaretic degree, it signals a climactic end. This is a cosmic crescendo—a final reckoning with Capricorn’s lessons about authority and tradition. The structures that once seemed immovable are now crumbling, creating fertile ground for Aquarius’s energy to seed innovation and progress. Pluto in Aquarius doesn’t just build on Capricorn’s rubble; it reimagines the very blueprint of human society.<h3>Key Themes of Pluto in Aquarius</h3>1. Revolutionizing Power and Community Aquarius, the water bearer, symbolizes collective consciousness and shared progress. Pluto’s influence here will shift power dynamics, replacing top-down hierarchies with decentralized systems. Grassroots movements and community-based solutions will redefine governance, fostering equity and inclusivity. This is the era where individuals find strength in numbers, reshaping the world through collaboration rather than control.2. Technological Breakthroughs and Challenges Aquarius’s domain over technology aligns with a surge in innovations—from artificial intelligence and biotechnology to space exploration. Yet, Pluto demands accountability. As we push the boundaries of what’s possible, ethical dilemmas around privacy, surveillance, and the balance between human values and technological advancement will take center stage. This is a call to wield innovation responsibly, ensuring progress doesn’t come at the cost of humanity.3. Rebellion and Social Reform True to its rebellious nature, Aquarius challenges the status quo. Pluto amplifies this energy, catalyzing social movements that demand justice and equity. Marginalized voices will rise, pushing against oppressive systems. This is a time of radical change, where outdated norms fall away to make room for revolutionary ideas.4. Evolving Human Connections In the Aquarian age, how we relate to one another will transform. Online communities, unconventional partnerships, and global networks will redefine relationships. This transit emphasizes unity through shared visions, balancing individual freedom with collective harmony. <figure id="figure-j8j4h3xm0rm3onvr2t"><img id="j8j4h3xm0rm3onvr2t" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/11l33EYTa4xeOmH3bRKs8G7UlDOdHyRDnZEzHXqJS00KhVQWySCwabR7xznRmzDk.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/11l33EYTa4xeOmH3bRKs8G7UlDOdHyRDnZEzHXqJS00KhVQWySCwabR7xznRmzDk.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;"></figure><h3>Capricorn vs. Aquarius: A Cosmic Tug-of-War</h3>Capricorn and Aquarius are neighbors in the zodiac, yet their energies couldn’t be more different. Capricorn, an earth sign, values stability, tradition, and measured progress. Aquarius, an air sign, thrives on disruption, freedom, and intellectual exploration. The tension between them isn’t merely oppositional—it’s transformational.An Example: The Collapse of Traditional Power StructuresImagine a scenario where Capricorn is the CEO of a longstanding company, carefully maintaining its operations and upholding its hierarchical structure. The company has been run the same way for decades—slow, steady growth, with well-defined roles and responsibilities.Enter Aquarius, a visionary employee who questions the entire system. They propose radical ideas like flattening the hierarchy, introducing cutting-edge technology, and prioritizing employee autonomy over control. To Capricorn, this sounds reckless—a threat to everything they’ve worked so hard to build. But to Aquarius, Capricorn’s insistence on preserving the status quo is suffocating and outdated.The tension arises because Capricorn can’t see the need for drastic change when “the system still works,” while Aquarius can’t stand the inefficiency and lack of adaptability in clinging to tradition.Can They Ever Work Together?For Capricorn and Aquarius to coexist, they must meet each other halfway. Capricorn can learn from Aquarius’s visionary thinking, embracing flexibility and innovation, while Aquarius can respect Capricorn’s need for structure, ensuring their ideas are grounded enough to be actionable.But their bond will never be seamless. Earth can only hold air for so long before air escapes, and air can only blow through earth until it encounters resistance. It’s a dynamic relationship at best—one built on mutual growth through tension, not harmony.While Capricorn and Aquarius may struggle to bond, their tension is exactly what drives transformation. Capricorn’s structures must eventually fall to make way for Aquarius’s future, and Aquarius’s rebellion needs Capricorn’s foundation to build upon. Together, they are a cosmic dance of endings and beginnings, destruction and creation. The old world crumbles so the new can rise.<figure id="figure-k09c7cqrrm3oo1v2k"><img id="k09c7cqrrm3oo1v2k" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/3btGTnmL5AFNmTf63h7cHKGZHAiojkuyzqtCTcVuRag3J3c5igivcNpXPqlhbeDD.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/3btGTnmL5AFNmTf63h7cHKGZHAiojkuyzqtCTcVuRag3J3c5igivcNpXPqlhbeDD.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: center center;"></figure><h3>Astro Chart Illustration November 20th 2024 ( Zero Degree Pluto in Aquarius)</h3><figure id="figure-2hio7acnn6m3onlr6z"><img id="2hio7acnn6m3onlr6z" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/38LZMkWApQNFeUbhg3lnhDdm2MwbFdkxfkpuQQZNH1vtIBM3uvjzhrRs8CjAc0em.jpg" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/38LZMkWApQNFeUbhg3lnhDdm2MwbFdkxfkpuQQZNH1vtIBM3uvjzhrRs8CjAc0em.jpg" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: center center;"></figure>Credit: astro-seek.com<h3>The 0° Aquarius Shift: What Lies Ahead</h3>On November 20, 2024, Pluto officially enters 0° Aquarius, heralding a fresh start. This critical degree signifies initiation, brimming with potential for innovation and breakthroughs. Here’s what we can expect:<ul><li>Technological Revolution: Advances in AI, renewable energy, and space exploration will redefine how we live and interact.</li><li>Decentralized Power: Governance will shift from centralized authority to community-driven systems, empowering individuals to shape their futures.</li><li>Radical Social Reforms: Movements for equality and justice will surge, challenging entrenched inequities and advocating for inclusivity.</li><li>Revolution in Relationships: The ways we connect and form bonds will evolve, emphasizing collaboration over competition.</li><li>Global Awakening: This transit will inspire a collective reevaluation of what it means to be human, focusing on resilience, progress, and unity.</li></ul><figure id="figure-5sgqu76twmm3onzujs"><img id="5sgqu76twmm3onzujs" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/1bTrv2enjjPyHTrnzFn8WaUPbgeEp8KMxGZP4Wa4kzS1IpSpefHq8hHta7RouIK4.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: 50% 100%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionx="50%" data-positiony="100%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/1bTrv2enjjPyHTrnzFn8WaUPbgeEp8KMxGZP4Wa4kzS1IpSpefHq8hHta7RouIK4.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: 50% 100%;"></figure><h3>Personal Reflections: 2008 to 2024</h3>In 2008, I carried a poverty mindset, one that was deeply entangled with the systems of capitalism—the grid, the grind, the relentless machinery of day-to-day commerce. These Capricornian structures had ruled for generations, imposing a sense of obligation, hierarchy, and servitude. They mirrored a form of modern-day slavery, binding not just individuals but entire communities to outdated rules that rewarded the few and exploited the many.This cosmic shift signals a dismantling of outdated systems—those same systems responsible for perpetuating generational trauma and exploitation. For centuries, these structures upheld cycles of control, hierarchy, and what can only be described as modern-day slavery, binding entire communities to patterns of poverty, inequity, and dependence.Looking back, I can see how much these themes impacted my life. At 22, I was still living with family, tethered by what I now recognize as outdated programming. In my family, the belief was clear: give everything to the family without question, expecting nothing in return because, well, "we're family." That ideology may have worked for previous generations, but for me, it felt like slavery. It wasn’t rooted in love or reciprocity, but in obligation and control.Even outside of the home, the systems I encountered in college and healthcare only deepened my sense of disillusionment. My college experience didn’t empower me—it felt like a transaction with little return, steeped in debt and bureaucracy. Hospitals weren’t places of healing for me but stark reminders of how profit-driven the system is, putting corporate interests above genuine care.But as we edge closer to Pluto in Aquarius, I’m hopeful. Aquarius is the energy of resilience, innovation, and the rebellious genius willing to embrace what others deem "weird." It’s the visionary mindset we need to navigate an exit strategy from these collapsing systems. Imagine a future where healthcare and education are no longer run by corporations, but by systems rooted in care, equity, and progress. Where communities thrive not on competition but on collaboration.This isn’t just about progress; it’s about healing. Slavery, whether through economic chains, societal programming, or inherited trauma, has left scars across generations. Pluto in Aquarius offers a chance to break those cycles, to dream up systems rooted in equity, care, and genuine freedom.<h3>A Message from the Stars </h3>Aquarius teaches us to look beyond the limits of what we’ve known, to envision a world that’s strange, beautiful, and entirely different. The old ways are falling apart, yes, but that’s exactly why I’m excited. Because what comes next is up to us.Now, as we step into Aquarius, I feel a palpable shift—a liberation from those chains. This is a moment to confront our inherited beliefs, heal generational wounds, and dream boldly of a world rooted in equity and care. The lessons of Capricorn have prepared us for this moment of radical transformation.Pluto in Aquarius invites you to embrace your inner rebel and alchemist. Transformation begins within—by releasing outdated limitations and aligning with the energies of progress and authenticity. Journal about the beliefs or systems you feel bound by. Reflect on one step you can take this week to embrace more freedom or innovation in your life.<figure id="figure-74405nuzhmm3oo48hr"><img id="74405nuzhmm3oo48hr" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/32du6pIxENu0DC3v6kEhgblD6KrqgFBGLbdB0eopG4qygKDFRSkcfttqldmYkHea.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/32du6pIxENu0DC3v6kEhgblD6KrqgFBGLbdB0eopG4qygKDFRSkcfttqldmYkHea.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: center center;"></figure>As the old falls away, ask yourself:<ul><li>What systems or beliefs no longer serve you?</li><li>How can you embody liberation in your daily life?</li><li>What unique vision or “weird” idea is waiting for you to bring it to life?</li></ul>This is your era to dream, build, and transform. Together, we can forge a future that honors individuality while embracing our shared humanity.By: Regina Heels, Cosmic Goth Princess.

Pluto in Aquarius Transit (2024–2044): An Era of Collective Evolution and Radical Transformation

Note: Lately, my energy has been focused on searching for a new home, a process that demands time, attention, and emotional bandwidth. While this transition is necessary for establishing stability, it has temporarily pulled me away from creating content and working on my tarot and astrology business, the Regina Heels brand. Despite this pause, my vision for the brand remains strong, and I am eager to return to sharing my insights and building meaningful connections through my work once I’m settled into a new space.&nbsp;&nbsp; Healing is not linear. It’s a spiral that takes us deeper into the truths we’ve long buried, allowing us to unearth what no longer serves us and rewrite our narrative with clarity, strength, and purpose.Today, I find myself reflecting on the depths of vulnerability, trust, and self-worth—truths uncovered in conversations about fears, betrayals, and the delicate interplay of masculine and feminine energy. What follows is an intimate dive into lessons learned, fears released, and the reclamation of self.<figure id="figure-had61lxd7qm3o0pqku"><img id="had61lxd7qm3o0pqku" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/2bm1Hm51yK7VTHluuflWrhbeWBoFsotyNPdu8D8XeutZU62nBSrk2nOsQ5TuarZD.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 50% 80%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="50%" data-positiony="80%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/2bm1Hm51yK7VTHluuflWrhbeWBoFsotyNPdu8D8XeutZU62nBSrk2nOsQ5TuarZD.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 50% 80%;"></figure><h3>On Fears of Betrayal and Trust</h3>The fear of betrayal often stems from a place where our core needs—to be seen, valued, and accepted—were left unmet. For me, this fear has lingered like a shadow, whispering doubts about whether I can truly be loved for who I am, in all my complexities.As a biological man who expresses femininity through Regina Heels, societal gender programming has left its mark. The pressure to "act manly" to attract women, paired with the fear of rejection, is a heavy burden. Yet, in embracing Regina Heels, I’ve discovered a mindset where I no longer carry the weight of those societal expectations. In my feminine aspects, I am free, fluid, and unapologetically me.<h3>Generational Feminism and Personal Scars</h3>Growing up in a generation where men were often the target of blame in feminist rhetoric deeply scarred me. I understand where these perspectives stemmed from, yet my experience made dating feel impossible. The fear of being labeled as "toxic" or even sued left me cautious, overly guarded, and questioning my value as a man.I love women deeply and am attracted to both women and men, identifying as bisexual. Yet, feminist programming instilled fear in me. I’m not dismissing feminism—it has addressed significant injustices, including women’s lack of rights to property, money, voting, and reproductive autonomy. These are critical advancements that align with equity principles, which I also follow.However, I’ve often felt caught in the crossfire, unable to fully relate due to my biological gender, which is frequently labeled as "toxic masculinity" simply because I exist. This label, combined with the societal pressures to conform, made it difficult to feel valued and safe in my identity.In embracing my feminine energy, I’ve found a safe haven—a space where societal judgments fade. But this journey isn’t just about escaping; it’s about rewriting my story. Feminism, at its core, seeks equality, and in aligning with its higher ideals, I’ve realized the importance of balance—within myself and in my relationships.<h3>Betrayal from My Mother: A Generational Wound</h3><figure id="figure-1ohpuh6k4am3mjkzcx"><img id="1ohpuh6k4am3mjkzcx" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/39LyxNCPhzsRyJ7r5cjfZr5Wy55ltNcdfJ1PdgeHOLWVlfSHwmgzkYkuM9SRobnJ.jpg" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 0% 85%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="0%" data-positiony="85%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/39LyxNCPhzsRyJ7r5cjfZr5Wy55ltNcdfJ1PdgeHOLWVlfSHwmgzkYkuM9SRobnJ.jpg" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 0% 85%;"></figure>The scars of betrayal from a parent cut the deepest. My mother, shaped by her own fears and generational programming, projected those fears onto me. She was afraid of men and, in turn, put me down, backstabbed me, and denied me autonomy. Everything was framed as being "for the family," yet my boundaries were often overlooked, and my generosity and kindness were taken advantage of, leaving me feeling emotionally strained.Her disdain for men ran so deep that when I was born, she openly told me she wished I had been a girl instead. Adding to this wound was the religious programming she was raised under, which prohibited her from accepting "gay men" or "feminine men." This deeply ingrained belief system made it impossible for her to see and honor all parts of who I am.Well, the joke is on her because she never met Regina. I’ve never introduced Regina Heels to her because I never felt safe or vulnerable enough to bring her to light. Regina represents a part of me that thrives on authenticity and self-expression—qualities that were stifled in the environment I grew up in. This unspoken truth reflects the boundaries I’ve built to protect my authentic self and the journey of reclaiming my autonomy, free from the weight of her expectations and judgments.<h3>Releasing Limiting Beliefs Under the Taurus Full Moon</h3><figure id="figure-9zpn7lv9bnm3mj0udl"><img id="9zpn7lv9bnm3mj0udl" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/3bXrzKBFBNYjo6odHwsrKdOd7toFUvkRUfkLTEFIK9Nei0oahkpmPGvGitsuQM99.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 50% 80%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="50%" data-positiony="80%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/3bXrzKBFBNYjo6odHwsrKdOd7toFUvkRUfkLTEFIK9Nei0oahkpmPGvGitsuQM99.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 50% 80%;"></figure>The Full Moon in Taurus occurred on November 15, 2024, at 4:29 PM EST.&nbsp;The Full Moon in Taurus is associated with grounding energy, stability, and material abundance, making it an ideal time to focus on manifesting tangible goals, such as acquiring a home. The Full Moon in Taurus invites us to let go of what no longer serves us. Today, I release the following limiting beliefs:<ul><li>That I need to act a certain way to be loved and accepted.</li><li>That my value as a man is diminished by my feminine energy.</li><li>That financial security and creative freedom are unattainable dreams.</li><li>That I must carry the weight of my family’s expectations and betrayals.</li></ul>In their place, I plant seeds of empowerment:<ul><li>I am most attractive when I am authentic.</li><li>My feminine energy is a source of strength and beauty.</li><li>Financial abundance flows to me effortlessly, supporting my creative and travel aspirations.</li><li>My boundaries are non-negotiable, and I create relationships rooted in mutual respect and love. &nbsp;<h3>Closing Reflections</h3></li></ul>This journey of release and reclamation is not an easy one. It’s a process of facing fears, grieving losses, and embracing truths that have long been buried. But through it all, I find myself stepping closer to a life of freedom, authenticity, and joy.To anyone reading this, may you find the courage to release what no longer serves you and the strength to reclaim what is rightfully yours. You are worthy, whole, and powerful beyond measure. Let this serve as a reminder: your journey is sacred, and your truth is a gift. Share it. Honor it. Live it.By: Regina Heels

Unveiling the Wounds: A Journey of Release and Reclamation. (Taurus Full Moon)

Today, as Scorpio season blankets us in introspection and transformation, I held a ceremony to cut cords from my parents—a ritual of release and a powerful mark in my journey of healing. Scorpio season, a time when nature itself embraces the fall, the shedding of leaves, and the symbolic death that precedes winter, is when I felt called to let go of the past in a deeper, more final way.October brings Halloween, a holiday widely celebrated here. Yet, I don’t celebrate it myself; I was raised with the beautiful Mexican tradition of Día de Muertos, the Day of the Dead. Rooted in indigenous and Spanish heritage, Día de Muertos is a time to honor our deceased loved ones, to create altars adorned with their favorite foods, marigolds, photos, and candles. It’s a celebration of life and death intertwined, recognizing the presence of our ancestors who remain with us in spirit.Halloween may not be my tradition, but in many ways, it feels like I celebrate it year-round. Dressing up is a lifestyle for me; I choose to embody different expressions and aesthetics on any day I feel inspired. So, while Halloween invites many to play dress-up, I live that magic every day, expressing my inner world through the personas I create and wear.<figure id="figure-nxtoednzmmm2yazb9z"><img id="nxtoednzmmm2yazb9z" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/3UBMK6kb2LFXq0Pb7y9MlP2O35TZC5SpRHG8mnio0vKY4rJtLiscISV8I5cNlDDF.png" alt="Let me see your future." title="Let me see your future." class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/3UBMK6kb2LFXq0Pb7y9MlP2O35TZC5SpRHG8mnio0vKY4rJtLiscISV8I5cNlDDF.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;"></figure><h3>Scorpio my Favorite Season.</h3>Scorpio season has always been my favorite, with its intense themes of transformation, mystery, and renewal. Despite the recent loss I’ve experienced through this cord-cutting ceremony, there’s something about this season that speaks to my soul. I love the colors and energies that come alive in the house of Scorpio—the deep reds, blacks, and rich, earthy tones that bring a sense of power and introspection.Astrologically, my connection to Scorpio season runs deep. I have my Moon, Mars, and Pluto in Scorpio, all residing in the 8th house—the house of transformation, rebirth, and hidden truths. This alignment fuels my connection to this season’s themes, where life and death meet, where the past is honored, and where the groundwork is laid for new growth. Scorpio season, with its vibrant energy of shedding and regeneration, feels like home to me.After the cord-cutting ceremony, I experienced deep grief—a heaviness that lingered as I came to terms with this loss. But today, on Día de Muertos, I found a way to release that grief by honoring my past relationship with my parents. Through remembering the good moments and reflecting on our shared history, I allowed myself to celebrate what was and, in doing so, let go with love and gratitude. This day offered me a path to peace, reminding me that honoring the past can be the final step toward true healing. In the spirit of Día de Muertos, I find parallels with this season’s themes of life, death, and rebirth. Scorpio season calls us to embrace endings, much like the way Día de Muertos celebrates the lives of those who have passed, reminding us that endings are also beginnings.<figure id="figure-oqtbwhsnh6m2yay1d3"><img id="oqtbwhsnh6m2yay1d3" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/13mejjXGqhkOvsZHLQZmrrD6pFMAS3GmseiPvZKZqFVOFtVInYwALeJmJY15iQxe.png" alt="Fortune-telling on cards. The fortune teller hands over a Tarot card. The zodiac circle surrounds the hand. The concept of divination, astrology and esotericism" title="Fortune-telling on cards. The fortune teller hands over a Tarot card. The zodiac circle surrounds the hand. The concept of divination, astrology and esotericism" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: 50% 45%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionx="50%" data-positiony="45%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/13mejjXGqhkOvsZHLQZmrrD6pFMAS3GmseiPvZKZqFVOFtVInYwALeJmJY15iQxe.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: 50% 45%;"></figure><h3>The Ritual of Reclamation</h3>As the ceremony began, I used Hapé, sage, and crystals to ground and open pathways for this release. I prepared the Hapé, inhaling it deeply, and immediately felt the intensity surge within me—a powerful sensation that broke down old barriers and illusions, allowing me to confront the pain and grief of what I was letting go.With every breath, I felt my intention to sever these bonds strengthen. The sage smoke cleared the air, and I visualized my connection with my parents dissolving into light, much like the fall leaves scattering on the ground. I offered what remained—the emotional residue and fragments of old stories—back to the earth, trusting it would transmute them into something new.For more details on my ceremony and the journey of reclaiming my power, see my blog post: A Cord Cutting Ceremony – Reclaiming My Power (<a data-mce-href="https://reginaheels.com/blog/a-cord-cutting-ceremony---reclaiming-my-power" href="https://reginaheels.com/blog/a-cord-cutting-ceremony---reclaiming-my-power" title="A Cord Cutting Ceremony – Reclaiming My Power">link</a>). This post dives deeper into the transformative steps, rituals, and emotions that guided me through this profound experience.<h3>Grieving the Loss</h3>Even in reclaiming my power, I’m grieving heavily for the loss. It’s a unique kind of pain, realizing that I don’t have parents in the same sense anymore, a pain that few can truly understand. This grieving feels like watching those precious connections fall away, just as leaves descend, leading to the stark bareness of winter. It’s a painful process, but one that brings clarity and quiet, preparing me for new growth.<h3>Scorpio Season and the Power of Letting Go</h3>Scorpio, a sign of transformation and rebirth, teaches us that life’s cycles of death and renewal are necessary. Like the trees that let go of their leaves, I am embracing this act of release. Just as Día de Muertos honors life and death, this ceremony honors my journey toward wholeness.In releasing the cords that held me to the expectations and needs of my parents, I have created space for a rebirth. Scorpio season has taught me that endings are never final, but part of an endless cycle where we shed what no longer serves, making room for our next evolution.<figure id="figure-hljlnfwe6gm2yb0zgl"><img id="hljlnfwe6gm2yb0zgl" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/26EgS2bqoguELXuQ8RFqZym76fAPyJwl9qGGCquN4059vTlOB70qjSdc4IkxIyZl.png" alt="Close-up of a fortune teller reading tarot cards" title="Close-up of a fortune teller reading tarot cards" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 50% 50%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="50%" data-positiony="50%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/26EgS2bqoguELXuQ8RFqZym76fAPyJwl9qGGCquN4059vTlOB70qjSdc4IkxIyZl.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 50% 50%;"></figure><h3>Finding Peace in the Endings</h3>Today, I honor the past by releasing it, as one honors a loved one who has passed. I acknowledge the gifts and lessons that these connections brought, and with gratitude, I let them rest in peace. This act of cutting cords isn’t one of hatred or anger; it’s an act of profound self-love, giving myself the freedom to move forward, unburdened by expectations that were not mine to carry.To those navigating their own season of endings, know that letting go isn’t about abandonment; it’s about honoring the truth of what can no longer be. As Scorpio season reminds us, there’s beauty and strength in transformation, and through this, we allow our own renewal.With love and light,Regina Heels

Embracing Transformation: A Día de Muertos Cord Cutting Ceremony in Scorpio Season

The cord cutting ceremony I performed wasn’t just a ritual to sever ties—it was a pivotal moment in my long healing journey, a journey that called me to step into the fullness of my Magician. It required me to go beyond letting go and venture into the realms of transformation, to embrace my power as an alchemist and transmuter of energy. It demanded a deep connection to my own ability to create, shift, and manifest a new reality.Yet, this choice requires sacrifice. In embracing the Magician within, I made the profound decision to completely cut off my parents—a decision not taken lightly. This was a path that demanded I release connections that no longer aligned with my true self. It’s a choice that asks me to let go of my safety nets, to stand alone, and to redefine family and connection on my terms. True magic demands that we release what weighs us down so we can rise into who we are meant to be.The weight of realizing that I can no longer rely on my parents is heavy, bringing a unique kind of pain. In letting go, I feel the void left behind—the dreams of support and acceptance, the hope that family could be a safe place. This grief isn’t something that fades quickly; it’s a profound loss rooted in honoring my truth, even when it means moving forward without the family bonds that once felt unbreakable.<figure id="figure-wq4678mdnlm2yarauj"><img id="wq4678mdnlm2yarauj" src="https://cdn.durable.co/covers/34D74YhnNj922XYWXExMJ6DjwO8oP8RorpXRVCAylO6G5MGv3B3PmC5K7IumkUza.jpg" alt="Astrological wheel projection, choose a zodiac sign" title="Astrological wheel projection, choose a zodiac sign" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 " style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 0% 50%;" data-corners="no-rounded" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="0%" data-positiony="50%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/covers/34D74YhnNj922XYWXExMJ6DjwO8oP8RorpXRVCAylO6G5MGv3B3PmC5K7IumkUza.jpg" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 0% 50%;"></figure><h3>Symbols of Sacrifice and Transformation</h3>The Magician card in tarot often features the colors red and white, symbolizing sacrifice (red) and purity of intention (white) in transformation. Red represents the courage to shed old attachments, even when it’s painful, while white stands for clarity of purpose, a pure alignment with one’s true self. The Magician, with these colors, holds the tools of manifestation on the table before them—a cup, a wand, a sword, and a pentacle. These tools symbolize mastery over the elements of life: water (emotion), fire (willpower), air (thought), and earth (stability). Together, they reflect the balance necessary to create and manifest powerfully.Stepping into the role of the Magician requires fully knowing who you are. It’s about understanding your own elements—your strengths, weaknesses, gifts, and shadows. This journey to self-knowledge might come through astrology, Human Design, meditation, or other self-discovery practices. For me, it meant studying my natal chart, understanding my unique cosmic blueprint, and discovering the energetic imprints that shape my life path.<h3>The Art of Transmutation</h3>As I embarked on this ceremony, I knew it wasn’t just about cutting cords; it was about transmutation. It was about taking the raw material of pain, disappointment, and betrayal and transforming it into wisdom, resilience, and empowerment. This journey called upon every facet of my inner alchemist, compelling me to face my shadows and embrace the challenge of change.In this ceremony, I invoked my inner Magician to guide me through the process of releasing old ties and reclaiming my power. With each breath, I felt a shift, a transformation within, as I allowed myself to let go of the outdated narratives that no longer served me. The pain and grief didn’t just disappear—they were transformed into fuel for growth, a catalyst for my evolution.<h3>Creating My Own Reality</h3>The truth is, we all have the power to create our own reality. This realization wasn’t just a passing thought; it became a cornerstone of my journey. I had to confront the narratives I was holding onto, the stories imposed upon me by others, and the expectations that shaped how I saw myself. To step into the role of the Magician, I had to dismantle those illusions and embrace the truth of who I am.With each moment of clarity, I began to weave a new reality, one in which my worth is not dependent on external approval or validation. I embraced the responsibility of being the creator of my own life, knowing that I have the power to shape my destiny, define my boundaries, and manifest my dreams.<h3>The Ceremony of Reclamation</h3>The cord cutting ceremony was more than an act of letting go; it was a ceremony of reclamation. It was an acknowledgment of the power I hold to shape my path, to transmute pain into purpose, and to find freedom in authenticity. By embracing my role as an alchemist, I became the one who decides what to keep and what to release, what to nurture and what to transform.In that moment, I felt the energy of the Magician rise within me, a reminder that I have the tools and the wisdom to create a life that aligns with my true self. I no longer needed the approval or validation of those who could not see my worth. I understood that the reality I sought was already within me, waiting to be brought to life through intention and action.<figure id="figure-rr8bqdlqcgm2ybdbtj"><img id="rr8bqdlqcgm2ybdbtj" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/15v11ZNwnnQ1nV9OzAKCmlP7KwzTXFoRST6JVCtKBZEbjoHbnmjOk9RzEvyzyxYO.png" alt="Tarot cards" title="Tarot cards" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/15v11ZNwnnQ1nV9OzAKCmlP7KwzTXFoRST6JVCtKBZEbjoHbnmjOk9RzEvyzyxYO.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: center center;"></figure><h3>The Journey Forward</h3>This journey of embracing the Magician within isn’t just about wielding power; it’s about understanding the delicate dance between creation and surrender. It’s about knowing when to take action and when to trust the unfolding of the universe. It’s about owning my story and recognizing that I am the author of each chapter, each moment, and each transformation.As I move forward, I do so with a deep sense of gratitude for the lessons learned, the challenges faced, and the transformation that has taken place. I carry with me the knowledge that I am both the creator and the creation, the Magician and the alchemist, capable of transmuting whatever life brings my way.To anyone who finds themselves in the midst of a storm, struggling with old narratives and deep wounds—know that you too are the Magician of your own life. You hold the power to create, to transmute, and to shape your reality. Embrace that power, honor your journey, and trust that even in moments of pain, you are being guided toward your own healing and growth.With love and light,By: Regina Heels

Embracing the Magician Within – A Journey of Healing and Transformation

Today, I held a ceremony to cut cords from my parents, a ritual of release that signified more than just severing ties—it marked the reclaiming of my power, my peace, and my purpose. It was the culmination of a journey that’s been paved with moments of love, pain, misunderstanding, and control.Cord cutting is not an act of anger or revenge, nor is it a means to erase the past. Instead, it’s a declaration of freedom and an invitation for healing, not just for myself, but for everyone involved. For so long, I found myself entangled in the expectations, criticisms, and demands placed upon me. The weight of their disapproval and the endless cycle of unmet expectations felt like chains wrapped tightly around my soul, suffocating the authentic self yearning to break free.<figure id="figure-cg9r43wvrjm2yajkx3"><img id="cg9r43wvrjm2yajkx3" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/1dIDVuhq12m1zuMZrzh896PGUvHMRWNv5zf0exGiiMOqv2moYA4nlHMD4gGg36QJ.png" alt="Tarot cards" title="Tarot cards" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 50% 100%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="1:1" data-caption="" data-positionx="50%" data-positiony="100%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/1dIDVuhq12m1zuMZrzh896PGUvHMRWNv5zf0exGiiMOqv2moYA4nlHMD4gGg36QJ.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 1/1; object-position: 50% 100%;"></figure><h3>&nbsp;The Ritual of Reclamation</h3>As the ceremony began, I incorporated Hapé, sage, and crystals, each representing a different element of my healing. I used sage to cleanse the space, allowing the smoke to purify the lingering energies of old pain and outdated narratives. I took a moment to sit with crystals chosen for their grounding and healing properties, holding them close as a reminder of my strength and resilience.For this ceremony, I chose to work with Hapé, a sacred plant medicine traditionally used by various indigenous cultures in South America. The ritual of Hapé involves administering a fine powdered blend of medicinal herbs and tobacco through the nose using a small pipe called a kuripe. Hapé is not simply a physical experience; it’s a spiritual one, deeply rooted in grounding and opening pathways for clarity and healing.As I sat in meditation, I carefully prepared the Hapé, respecting its sacredness and the tradition it carries. With each inhalation, the experience was immediate and intense, like a nuclear bomb inside the hemispheres of my brain. A good Hapé for me personally is when it knocks you out like that; it might be too much for others. The sensation was powerful, almost overwhelming, as it penetrated the core of my being. This intensity was not one of pain, but of deep awakening—a sudden and explosive clearing that left no room for old illusions or internal barriers.Hapé forces you to confront what lies within, to face your own truths without hesitation. As it surged through me, I felt every unresolved emotion, every suppressed thought rise to the surface, demanding to be acknowledged and released. It was a moment of surrender and trust, as the medicine guided me to confront and let go of what no longer served me.<figure id="figure-bnm3vhkoicm2yaldc1"><img id="bnm3vhkoicm2yaldc1" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/5RoAv5l7VKapNFW1qQJH4Vob7V7LxMf6ppl12790uJwelyVPBEiQj85uRf3hepQZ.jpg" alt="Tarot cards" title="Tarot cards" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-sm md:rounded-md lg:rounded-lg" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/5RoAv5l7VKapNFW1qQJH4Vob7V7LxMf6ppl12790uJwelyVPBEiQj85uRf3hepQZ.jpg" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;"></figure><h3>The Release to Earth</h3>Once the cords dissolved, I took what remained—the emotional residue, the fragments of old stories—and offered them back to the earth. I released them with gratitude, trusting that the earth would transmute them into something new. It was an acknowledgment that while the past has shaped me, it does not define me. It was an act of trust in my own ability to heal and in the earth’s power to renew.<h3>The Pain of Grieving</h3>Despite the freedom and clarity gained through this ritual, the loss is something I grieve heavily. It’s a pain no one should have to endure—saying goodbye to what was once a part of you, and releasing the attachment to people you still care for deeply. Letting go isn’t a simple act of forgetting; it’s a conscious choice to honor the truth of what can no longer be, while embracing the space to heal and move forward.<h3>The Release of Old Narratives</h3>In the process of cutting these cords, I released old narratives that no longer served me: the story of a dutiful child constantly seeking approval, the narrative of a doll meant to validate someone else's idea of worth, and the fiction that my worth could only be measured by their standards. I saw these stories for what they were—constructs, relics of a past that had imprisoned both them and me.As I let go, a new narrative began to form: one of sovereignty and self-acceptance. I embraced the truth that my journey is mine to forge, and my worth does not hinge on being a good son or daughter, but on being an authentic being.<h3>Embracing the Unknown</h3>The ceremony wasn’t just about ending relationships; it was about creating new ones, with myself, with my truth, and with those who choose to walk beside me on this journey. It’s about embracing the unknown and trusting that where there’s authenticity, there’s a path forward. Letting go of my parents' approval isn’t a rejection of them—it’s an affirmation of me.And so, as the cords dissolved and the ceremony ended, I stood in the quiet aftermath, feeling the echo of old pain slowly fading, making room for something new: peace, strength, and hope.<h3>Finding Peace in Letting Go</h3>Letting go doesn’t mean forgetting or abandoning. It means releasing the control that others’ narratives held over me, allowing me to write my own story. It’s an acknowledgment of all the love and hurt that came from these bonds, and an act of self-compassion to allow myself to move on.If there’s one message I want to leave with this, it’s this: cutting cords is not an act of hatred; it’s an act of self-love. It’s about freeing both parties from an unhealthy dynamic and allowing each of us to find our own healing, in our own time and space.Today, I honor my past by releasing it. I honor my parents by freeing them from my expectations and liberating myself from theirs. And most importantly, I honor myself by stepping into the future unburdened and ready to embrace whatever comes next.With love and light,By:Regina Heels

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