Embracing the Magician Within – A Journey of Healing and Transformation
The cord cutting ceremony I performed wasn’t just a ritual to sever ties—it was a pivotal moment in my long healing journey, a journey that called me to step into the fullness of my Magician. It required me to go beyond letting go and venture into the realms of transformation, to embrace my power as an alchemist and transmuter of energy. It demanded a deep connection to my own ability to create, shift, and manifest a new reality.
Yet, this choice requires sacrifice. In embracing the Magician within, I made the profound decision to completely cut off my parents—a decision not taken lightly. This was a path that demanded I release connections that no longer aligned with my true self. It’s a choice that asks me to let go of my safety nets, to stand alone, and to redefine family and connection on my terms. True magic demands that we release what weighs us down so we can rise into who we are meant to be.
The weight of realizing that I can no longer rely on my parents is heavy, bringing a unique kind of pain. In letting go, I feel the void left behind—the dreams of support and acceptance, the hope that family could be a safe place. This grief isn’t something that fades quickly; it’s a profound loss rooted in honoring my truth, even when it means moving forward without the family bonds that once felt unbreakable.
Symbols of Sacrifice and Transformation
The Magician card in tarot often features the colors red and white, symbolizing sacrifice (red) and purity of intention (white) in transformation. Red represents the courage to shed old attachments, even when it’s painful, while white stands for clarity of purpose, a pure alignment with one’s true self. The Magician, with these colors, holds the tools of manifestation on the table before them—a cup, a wand, a sword, and a pentacle. These tools symbolize mastery over the elements of life: water (emotion), fire (willpower), air (thought), and earth (stability). Together, they reflect the balance necessary to create and manifest powerfully.
Stepping into the role of the Magician requires fully knowing who you are. It’s about understanding your own elements—your strengths, weaknesses, gifts, and shadows. This journey to self-knowledge might come through astrology, Human Design, meditation, or other self-discovery practices. For me, it meant studying my natal chart, understanding my unique cosmic blueprint, and discovering the energetic imprints that shape my life path.
The Art of Transmutation
As I embarked on this ceremony, I knew it wasn’t just about cutting cords; it was about transmutation. It was about taking the raw material of pain, disappointment, and betrayal and transforming it into wisdom, resilience, and empowerment. This journey called upon every facet of my inner alchemist, compelling me to face my shadows and embrace the challenge of change.
In this ceremony, I invoked my inner Magician to guide me through the process of releasing old ties and reclaiming my power. With each breath, I felt a shift, a transformation within, as I allowed myself to let go of the outdated narratives that no longer served me. The pain and grief didn’t just disappear—they were transformed into fuel for growth, a catalyst for my evolution.
Creating My Own Reality
The truth is, we all have the power to create our own reality. This realization wasn’t just a passing thought; it became a cornerstone of my journey. I had to confront the narratives I was holding onto, the stories imposed upon me by others, and the expectations that shaped how I saw myself. To step into the role of the Magician, I had to dismantle those illusions and embrace the truth of who I am.
With each moment of clarity, I began to weave a new reality, one in which my worth is not dependent on external approval or validation. I embraced the responsibility of being the creator of my own life, knowing that I have the power to shape my destiny, define my boundaries, and manifest my dreams.
The Ceremony of Reclamation
The cord cutting ceremony was more than an act of letting go; it was a ceremony of reclamation. It was an acknowledgment of the power I hold to shape my path, to transmute pain into purpose, and to find freedom in authenticity. By embracing my role as an alchemist, I became the one who decides what to keep and what to release, what to nurture and what to transform.
In that moment, I felt the energy of the Magician rise within me, a reminder that I have the tools and the wisdom to create a life that aligns with my true self. I no longer needed the approval or validation of those who could not see my worth. I understood that the reality I sought was already within me, waiting to be brought to life through intention and action.
The Journey Forward
This journey of embracing the Magician within isn’t just about wielding power; it’s about understanding the delicate dance between creation and surrender. It’s about knowing when to take action and when to trust the unfolding of the universe. It’s about owning my story and recognizing that I am the author of each chapter, each moment, and each transformation.
As I move forward, I do so with a deep sense of gratitude for the lessons learned, the challenges faced, and the transformation that has taken place. I carry with me the knowledge that I am both the creator and the creation, the Magician and the alchemist, capable of transmuting whatever life brings my way.
To anyone who finds themselves in the midst of a storm, struggling with old narratives and deep wounds—know that you too are the Magician of your own life. You hold the power to create, to transmute, and to shape your reality. Embrace that power, honor your journey, and trust that even in moments of pain, you are being guided toward your own healing and growth.
With love and light,
By: Regina Heels