Unveiling the Wounds: A Journey of Release and Reclamation. (Taurus Full Moon)

Note: Lately, my energy has been focused on searching for a new home, a process that demands time, attention, and emotional bandwidth. While this transition is necessary for establishing stability, it has temporarily pulled me away from creating content and working on my tarot and astrology business, the Regina Heels brand. Despite this pause, my vision for the brand remains strong, and I am eager to return to sharing my insights and building meaningful connections through my work once I’m settled into a new space. 

 
Healing is not linear. It’s a spiral that takes us deeper into the truths we’ve long buried, allowing us to unearth what no longer serves us and rewrite our narrative with clarity, strength, and purpose.

Today, I find myself reflecting on the depths of vulnerability, trust, and self-worth—truths uncovered in conversations about fears, betrayals, and the delicate interplay of masculine and feminine energy. What follows is an intimate dive into lessons learned, fears released, and the reclamation of self.

On Fears of Betrayal and Trust

The fear of betrayal often stems from a place where our core needs—to be seen, valued, and accepted—were left unmet. For me, this fear has lingered like a shadow, whispering doubts about whether I can truly be loved for who I am, in all my complexities.

As a biological man who expresses femininity through Regina Heels, societal gender programming has left its mark. The pressure to "act manly" to attract women, paired with the fear of rejection, is a heavy burden. Yet, in embracing Regina Heels, I’ve discovered a mindset where I no longer carry the weight of those societal expectations. In my feminine aspects, I am free, fluid, and unapologetically me.

Generational Feminism and Personal Scars

Growing up in a generation where men were often the target of blame in feminist rhetoric deeply scarred me. I understand where these perspectives stemmed from, yet my experience made dating feel impossible. The fear of being labeled as "toxic" or even sued left me cautious, overly guarded, and questioning my value as a man.

I love women deeply and am attracted to both women and men, identifying as bisexual. Yet, feminist programming instilled fear in me. I’m not dismissing feminism—it has addressed significant injustices, including women’s lack of rights to property, money, voting, and reproductive autonomy. These are critical advancements that align with equity principles, which I also follow.

However, I’ve often felt caught in the crossfire, unable to fully relate due to my biological gender, which is frequently labeled as "toxic masculinity" simply because I exist. This label, combined with the societal pressures to conform, made it difficult to feel valued and safe in my identity.

In embracing my feminine energy, I’ve found a safe haven—a space where societal judgments fade. But this journey isn’t just about escaping; it’s about rewriting my story. Feminism, at its core, seeks equality, and in aligning with its higher ideals, I’ve realized the importance of balance—within myself and in my relationships.

Betrayal from My Mother: A Generational Wound

The scars of betrayal from a parent cut the deepest. My mother, shaped by her own fears and generational programming, projected those fears onto me. She was afraid of men and, in turn, put me down, backstabbed me, and denied me autonomy. Everything was framed as being "for the family," yet my boundaries were often overlooked, and my generosity and kindness were taken advantage of, leaving me feeling emotionally strained.

Her disdain for men ran so deep that when I was born, she openly told me she wished I had been a girl instead. Adding to this wound was the religious programming she was raised under, which prohibited her from accepting "gay men" or "feminine men." This deeply ingrained belief system made it impossible for her to see and honor all parts of who I am.

Well, the joke is on her because she never met Regina. I’ve never introduced Regina Heels to her because I never felt safe or vulnerable enough to bring her to light. Regina represents a part of me that thrives on authenticity and self-expression—qualities that were stifled in the environment I grew up in. This unspoken truth reflects the boundaries I’ve built to protect my authentic self and the journey of reclaiming my autonomy, free from the weight of her expectations and judgments.

Releasing Limiting Beliefs Under the Taurus Full Moon

The Full Moon in Taurus occurred on November 15, 2024, at 4:29 PM EST. 

The Full Moon in Taurus is associated with grounding energy, stability, and material abundance, making it an ideal time to focus on manifesting tangible goals, such as acquiring a home. The Full Moon in Taurus invites us to let go of what no longer serves us. Today, I release the following limiting beliefs:

• That I need to act a certain way to be loved and accepted.
• That my value as a man is diminished by my feminine energy.
• That financial security and creative freedom are unattainable dreams.
• That I must carry the weight of my family’s expectations and betrayals.

In their place, I plant seeds of empowerment:

• I am most attractive when I am authentic.
• My feminine energy is a source of strength and beauty.
• Financial abundance flows to me effortlessly, supporting my creative and travel aspirations.
• My boundaries are non-negotiable, and I create relationships rooted in mutual respect and love.
   

  Closing Reflections

This journey of release and reclamation is not an easy one. It’s a process of facing fears, grieving losses, and embracing truths that have long been buried. But through it all, I find myself stepping closer to a life of freedom, authenticity, and joy.

To anyone reading this, may you find the courage to release what no longer serves you and the strength to reclaim what is rightfully yours. You are worthy, whole, and powerful beyond measure. Let this serve as a reminder: your journey is sacred, and your truth is a gift. Share it. Honor it. Live it.

By: Regina Heels